Today You shined Your light on me, into my depths,
dispelling the shadows still lurking of my past life.
Life that was no life at all for without You,
Lord, there is only death.
I have always on the outside,
tried to hide all appearances of any disfunction and pain, recoiling in the corner;
beaten down from the weight of shame.
But I am done!
Done with all the fear, the hurt, the rejection,
the guilt and the overwhelming burden of responsibility that deceived me
into false submission.
Now I pour out the desecration of my soul upon Your mercy and find redemption.
It's almost like I built a box around those things and locked myself
in with the full intention of never letting myself out.
Afraid of... me!
Believing the lie that I was as truly disgusting and evil as I was told
and that somewhere in the deepest parts of my soul, in the shadows, was a monster...
I was in prison and I did not know that this day would be the day of my release.
The day when restoration would come and consume the darkness bringing gifts of light and peace.
Your grace has given me the courage
to face my accusers, principalites that hate the people of God.
I fought my way through with tears.
Love forced it's way past the tentacles of hurt that has tried to linger through the years.
Thank You Lord for loving me so much
for taking upon Yourself the torment of my mind, my sin and my blame.
For today I stand here, free to be me;
Naked and not ashamed!
